My Crazy Aunt Flo!

Since starting this whole TTC journey, I have longed, hoped,and prayed for good ole aunt Flo to not arrive. But religously every month she comes to visit me, but this month I have been waiting because she signals the start of our IVF journey. So today she decided to show up, I was told to call my RE when she came so I could get my 3 day bloodwork and ultrasound. You would know that my 3rd day is a holiday and the office is closed. Judy the IVF nurse said this was okay, I am to start BCP's on Sunday and start Lupron injections on September 11th. I can't say that I am excited about the shots but I am excited to get started. I go back in on Sept. 8th with my husband so we can learn the proper way to become a human pincushion! LOL! I forgot to say that my husband HATES needles, so I am doubting his brave face he puts on while saying I can do this, its all for a good cause! Iam releived that we are on our way in this journey! FINALLY, thanks to Aunt Flo.....

Sticker Shock!

Don't get me wrong I new infertility treatments were expensive but until the numbers are in front of you, reality does not set in. I am very thankful that I have decent health coverage that pays 70%
of the costs, and a godsend of a mother in law, because if not I do not think this all we even be an option for us but how do you put a price tag on a new life? The scary thing is that this is a huge gamble, there is no guarantee that this will even work for us, I suppose this is the risk we take. I have to say I am scared and worried that this will fail and my DH and myself will have our heart broken. I am just hoping my age and previously having children will hold in our favor.

Don't Believe Everything You Read!

Since we have started this journey I have spent numerous hours on the internet reading blogs and soaking in the vast wealth of knowledge the web offers. But while preparing myself for the trial transfer procedure that I was to undergo I never read anything about the PAIN I would experience after this procedure! I was told to come to this appointment with a full bladder, did you know that a full bladder with a speculum and ultrasound machine did not make a good combination! After four different speculums were tried to find the one which gave the perfect view of my insides, the trial transfer was finally underway! It was done and over very quickly but after the ram jacking was done to reach and see my cervix I was sore and very uncomfortable. After this I finally got to pee only to come back to have the vag cam inserted to take pictures of my ovaries. By the time I made it home from my appointment with all intentions on going back to work I was doubled over in pain, after many hours and many pills I no longer felt as if in any moment it would be time to push out my next offspring! So again I would like to say do NOT go into any procedure without assuming you may be in pain when finished. I guess thats why they say " No pain, no Gain"!

In the beginning.....

Our TTC journey began shortly after we got married, I have three children from previous relationships and my husband has no biological children of his own. I just figured I would get pregnant not long after we started trying because I never had to try to hard when my other children were conceived, but boy was I wrong! After six months or so of baby making sex, charting, temping, and peeing on hundreds of different sticks with no results, I new something wasn't working right. I went to see my GYN and he ordered a sperm analysis for my dh. The results came back and the news wasn't good, his count was low and so was everything else. We were then sent to see a urologist, with no real answers from this doctor, he told us to keep trying and repeat the SA again in 3 months. Three months later we repeated the test and the numbers had gone lower. My GYN refered us to a fertility specialist, we made our appt and went to see the RE. She ordered another SA and endocrine bloodwork on my husband. Again his count had dropped, now in the past 9 months his count dropped from 10 mil to 200k. DH's endocrine labs were all good but with no definite reason for such recurrent decreases she has recommended we do IVF/ICSI. This is were I am going to start journaling each step of our TTC journey through IVF.....